Top - Stradivarius
Leather Jacket - Promod
Shorts - Zara
Bag - Stradivarius
Shoes - Nike
I know I haven't posted anything since ages. In my defense, I was busy packing stuffs, coming back to Korea, unpacking tons of stuffs, welcoming new Indonesian students in my university and finally finishing my first of week of new semester. Well, or probably I'm just a huge procrastinator. That's more likely.
From now, I'm planning to make this blog more like my journal. I probably can't write on daily basis but I'll write as often as I could. I'll still definitely post random stuffs but I think I'll share more of my thought. Just a thing or two ;)
These days, I learned something that I'm still struggling with.
I thought about lots of things, dream, future, happiness, living life... Those kind of things. By the end of that train of thoughts, there's one question that popped up in my mind.
"Until what extent will I seek happiness? Will I ever able to find and reach it?"
And it turns out, I didn't have the answer. Will I ever able to reach the point in my life where I can say that I'm happy with everything I have.
To this point, it scares me. What if I'll die without finding the true happiness that I was longing for in my whole life?
Later, I don't know how, I think I came up with a conclusion.
I will never find happiness if me myself, don't know what I'm looking for. And I will never know what I'm looking for if I'm not even grateful and thankful with what I have today.
Gratitude. That's the answer. That's the first step.
When I'm not grateful with what I have, I'll constantly try to fix everything, anything. All I can see are the flaws, even when I've reached the point where I should've been satisfied. I won't. Because all I can see is the flaw, the dark negative part. That means I'm seeking something impossible because nothing would ever makes me feel satisfied and happy.
I still haven't figure out a lot of things. I really wish I had, but I haven't. At least not yet.
Anyway, the photos in this post were taken by the beloved, Brenda Evans. So happy that I finally got to meet her. We had a late lunch after briefly visited Indonesia Fashion Week.